The struggle never dies.

So, for the longest time, I thought that writing was difficult. I struggled writing my novels, struggled figuring out the characters and the plot. But something I wasn't prepared for was the difficulty that came AFTER I had finished my novel.

Now, with a completed novel, I have begun sending out inquiries to agents to see if I could get some representation and get published. However, I am beginning to feel discouraged.

I understand that these people see thousands of manuscripts and I am sure that out of these thousands, very few are good. However, this is what they signed up for. The day that they decided that they would be agents, was the day that they commited to get thousands of unwanted writings arriving in the mail or via email. However, I can't help but to compare this to the celebrities that complain about being famous...it just comes with the territory.

Now what I can't stand, is the impersonal nature of the rejections. If I spend 30 minutes, personally curtailing a query to an agent, I am astounded that they can't even spend the time to cut and past my name into a pre-existing rejection letter and call it a day! I have gotten several: "Dear Author, We apologize for the impersonal nature of this rejection."

Hmmm....

I apologize that you're an asshole.

Believe me, this is not about my rejections. I can handle those. I just wish that some agents could pull their heads out of their asses and act human. After all, almost everyone on this planet is.

4/7/10

I love the beach! Last night, me, Ryan (the boyfriend), Drake (the roommate), and his sister (visiting from.....somewhere) all went to Laguna Beach to watch the sunset and eat dinner together. Of course, the second I got close enough, I ran towards to beach because the sunset looked so beautiful!

I love how the water looks even more blue, almost flourescent when the sun begins to set! I couldn't believe the vividness of the oranges, reds, and their incredible contrast with the water. I know what you're thinking and the answer is yes. I have seen a sunset before. But it has been a while since I've enjoyed it so....and I hope you find it just as stupendous as I.

The place we wanted to eat was this little pizzeria on a corner. But when we arrived, they were already closed. So we ate at BJs. I couldn't believe how tiny the BJs is in Laguna, but it was still delicious! Once you're inside, it felt like I was eating somewhere inside of a boat, it's so quaint!

I have to go into work tonight....BOOO! Being that I had school earlier today, I really am not looking forward to this, however, I will just have to grin and bear it. I haven't won the lottery yet....

In other news...

So, so far this week has been rather uneventful. But, such is my life, really.

I've recently joined this one site called www.authonomy.com. It's actually pretty amazing. It's where writers can upload part or all or their novels and people can look at them and comment on them. Then, based off of how many people back your work, you can end up on the publishers desk of Harper Collins! I know it's unrealistic, but you should check it out. My novel is called Juliet and Romeo. It is unfinished, but I am really excited how it looks thus far.

Also, my teacher of my Advanced English class put me in a group assignment. Let me just say, that for me, group assignments suck. I would most likely rather pour acid into my eyes. It always ends up one of 4 ways:
1. I end up with people who literally don't do anything. And may not even know how to read.
2. I end up with people who disagree on the assignment, and none of them will waiver. Allowing for our group to get horrible grades because it is entirely uncollaborated on, and shows it.
3. I end up with someone I cannot stand, and have to grin and bear it, while envisioning either me running away screaming or me blowing a hole in their head.
4. I join a group, and no one else joins...thus I do more work, but am almost greatful that it didn't end up like the previous three.

And so my next group project has fallen under catagory 3. Enough said.

Listening to All Time Low. So good!